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Posts from — July 2009

The summer went where?

I sit here amazed that it is almost Aug. and I absolutely can’t believe it. I’m tired just thinking about what all this summer held for us. Of course there was our vacation in May, then camp for Ali, my brother and his family came for a little visit, both kids had VBS and a music camp at our church, we went to Indiana for the 4th of July, had our niece come for a visit, Clark went for his first time at Nona and Poppy’s by himself, and many many many swim meets. It has passed so fast. Ali was training 18 hours a week for swimming, which obviously took a large chunk of her summer. She just had a champ meet this past weekend and is now on a 3 week break. What will we ever do with ourselves? Ha!! I think I am ready for the consistent schedule that fall brings. I seem to keep up with that better…I know what is when. This summer I just couldn’t seem to keep up.

The kids and I are traveling one last time this summer. We leave bright and way tooooo early Sat. morning to fly out to Albuquerque, NM to visit with some dear friends. We haven’t been back since we moved from there when Ali was 5 1/2. I think she has changed a little since then. Ha!! I want Ali to see some of the fantastic Indian ruins since she doesn’t remember all that much from living there. I’ve already started making my “must see” list.

Our trip up to Indiana for the 4th was nice. The weather didn’t cooperate much. However, it was much cooler than the heat we have been enduring, so it was fine. We got to see some of our friends from Louisville one day…always enjoy that! Clark was able to meet his great grandmother and two aunts/uncles for the first time. We were able to spend some time out on the lake, which the kids loved. Ali had the chance to tube again, always a bonus for her!

I can’t believe I am even typing this, but we are celebrating Clark’s 2 year anniversary of being home this week! I am sure I don’t know where the time has gone. It was 2 years ago this week that we were handed the final paperwork that officially made us Samuel Ruslan Clark Judd’s parents! Wow! What an amazing day that was. There were times I wondered if that day would ever arrive. It did, and I was so thankful God had planned this all out before the creation of the world. This tiny little guy half a world away was brought into this world just for us. One of my FAVORITE songs right now is called What Do I Know of Holy by Addison Road. Love, love, love it…google it and listen!!

here are the words

I made You promises a thousand times
I tried to hear from Heaven
But I talked the whole time
I think I made You too small
I never feared You at all No
If You touched my face would I know You?
Looked into my eyes could I behold You?

(CHORUS)
What do I know of You
Who spoke me into motion?
Where have I even stood
But the shore along Your ocean?
Are You fire? Are You fury?
Are You sacred? Are You beautiful?
What do I know? What do I know of Holy?

I guess I thought that I had figured You out
I knew all the stories and I learned to talk about
How You were mighty to save
Those were only empty words on a page
Then I caught a glimpse of who You might be
The slightest hint of You brought me down to my knees

(CHORUS)
What do I know of You
Who spoke me into motion?
Where have I even stood
But the shore along Your ocean?
Are You fire? Are You fury?
Are You sacred? Are You beautiful?
What do I know? What do I know of Holy?

(CHORUS 2)
What do I know of Holy?
What do I know of wounds that will heal my shame?
And a God who gave life “its” name?
What do I know of Holy?
Of the One who the angels praise?
All creation knows Your name
On earth and heaven above
What do I know of this love?

(CHORUS)
What do I know of You
Who spoke me into motion?
Where have I even stood
But the shore along Your ocean?
Are You fire? Are You fury?
Are You sacred? Are You beautiful?
What do I know? What do I know of Holy?

What do I know of Holy?
What do I know of Holy?

It just rings so true for me. There were times I just absolutely made God too small. When I had multiple miscarriages…check! When we started the adoption process and felt overwhelmed with the STACK of paperwork…check! When our adoption was put on hold because of changes in the adoption process in Ukraine…check! When we got to Ukraine and the realization hit me that I was going to be in Ukraine without my husband for an unknown amount of time…check! Oh the list could go on and on. However, it was through those times of trials that God revealed himself in such a real way. He carried me, he comforted me, he provided for me in ways people just could not, and in the end I was left wondering why I ever doubted his trustworthiness. He is trustworthy, he is our rock, he is our strength, why do we make him too small? If we are never tested with trials, then he is never able to reveal himself to us in such a profound way. It was through those difficult situations that I came to realize how huge our God really is. He can carry us when we can’t carry ourselves, and he wants to. I recently read this quote “worry ends when faith begins…and that faith ends when worry begins.” Well put. Now, here I sit in July of 2009 feeling so blessed to have our beautiful 12 year old daughter and our full of life little 5 year old son! (and a pretty amazing and cute hubby too!) I am so thankful for the woman half a world away who chose to give her son life, and give us the opportunity to love him so much more than he will ever know! For that I am so grateful.

I like keeping track of things Clark does that we don’t want to forget…so here goes another memory for the record books. Ali had a swim meet this past weekend up in The Woodlands. She decided to act 12 years old, (she is pretty darn good at it by the way) and get a little mouthy with me. I was not so happy, and we proceeded to have a “discussion” about it when we made it to the car. Ok, I admit…I was HOT! However, I was trying to not loose my cool, but apparently Clark thought I was coming across as rude. He blurts out “Mama, God doesn’t want us to talk ugly…he doesn’t like it…Mama, God doesn’t like that.” T.C. and I had to hold back the chuckles and try to explain that Ali had been disrespectful. 🙂 It was a great reminder though, that the little ears around us hear everything!

Some pictures from the last few weeks…

July 29, 2009   1 Comment